Category: Infertility

There’s a lightness, this spring. The heavy air that weighed me down in winter grief, isn’t completely gone, but it has mostly dissipated. Walking with a smile is an easier task and I’m able to see strength in my body, where I used to see weakness. One thing about infertility, is that it will push… Continue reading This Spring Air

The bruises on my abdomen are gone, along with the dark blue and green ones that lived in the crook of my arm. There are no early morning appointments or amped up anxiety. Life is sort of calm, maybe quiet. On February 16 we transferred our only embryo, and a week or so later, we… Continue reading Moving…Forward?

It’s been four months since our failed IVF transfer. Four months since I’ve been able to write about it or even have a meaningful conversation with others about it. Time has moved quickly, and not at all, at the same time. Immediately after learning that we weren’t pregnant, without my having to ask, my partner… Continue reading After February 16

I scan the bookshelf next to my side of the bed. The double row of books, like an artifact or exhibit of what my focus, our focus, has been the past five years. Memoirs about women, deemed infertile, who eventually got pregnant, books on how to make changes in your life so that you too… Continue reading Inventory